Lessening

The pressure is lessening. I'm starting to get TRULY excited about my trip. I'm actually leaving in FOUR DAYS! I purchased all the supplies I need. I've made (and distributed) copies of my passport and itinerary. I have almost everything tied up at work. I'm just about ready to leave.

The money stuff hasn't been resolved. Not yet anyway. But, the pressure is lessening. I'm embracing what's before me and just going to let whatever happens happen. I'm not going to let what could happen when I return from Italy ruin my time IN Italy. I've heard so many stories of how God provided finacially in unexpected and ridiculous ways and I'm just choosing to believe that He's going to do something as only He can. He's my Provider. He's in control. He's given me this opportunity to go to Italy and I'm going to enjoy it.

I still think there's something bigger going on than simply freaking out about money because I'm going on this trip. There's something deeper that I think God's trying to free me from - the fear of never having enough and of thinking that I always have to take care of myself. I'm not sure how He's going to do it...but I know He's going to free me of these things and bring true truth to me in this area. Of course, that doesn't mean it's not going to be hard and/or scary in the process.

BUT, I'm still going to embrace and enjoy the trip I'm taking in a few days.