Well-Intentioned

The other day, a new girl at work asked me if I was married. When I said "nope" the next question was, "Do you have a boyfriend?"

Again, "Nope."

"Why not? You're so fabulous! I can't believe that you're not dating anyone! What about at your church? Are there no guys there? Or what about here at work? Surely there's someone...."

Her words were well-intentioned, kind, complimentary and annoying - on so many levels.

I could say "Oh, the right guy hasn't come around yet." Or, "I'm just picky." Or any number of pithy, somewhat true answers.

But, the truth is, I have no idea except that God has a plan. He knows what He's doing and I don't want to rush His timing and His plan - as much as I'd really like to be with someone right now.

But, her words set me off on this crazy train of thought.

Is the only proof of my "fabulousness" having a man in my life? And, if I don't have a man in my life, does that mean that I'm not actually "fabulous"?

What IS my problem afterall?

Something MUST be wrong with me...especially because I've only had one boyfriend in my nearly 29 years.

I've GOT to find someone.

I could go on and on.

If only her words would stop ringing through my mind. And if only the truth I said above - about not wanting to rush God while also being honest about my longing to be with someone - would satisfy and satiate me.

Grrrrr...........!