Heavy-Hearted

At work, I'm temporarily the executive assistant to our COO (while his assistant is on maternity leave) - in addition to my normal responsibilities.

Overall, it's been going well - though these sorts of things always bring some weirdness and transition issues. But, it's really fine.

Yet, being the assistant to the COO makes me privey to information I'd sometimes just prefer to not know. Most specifically, yesterday: I found out that we're going to be letting some people go.


I'm DEVASTATED - even though I 100% certain it won't be me who loses her job on Monday.


I don't know the specific people affected yet. That won't be made public until Monday probably. But, as a whole, this economy is hitting our industry and our company pretty hard. Our profit is SIGNIFICANTLY down for the year (though, thank God, there still is a BIT of a profit). We've had to let a few people go already (and close an entire office, as I mentioned here) but this time it hits closer to home. And, I am just wrecked for the poor souls who don't even know it's coming.


I LOVE the people I work with. Seriously, love them. Not just enjoy them. I adore and care for these people. I carry them in my heart. I pray for each and every one of them almost every day. I know their spouses. I know their kids' names. It's so much more than just working 40hrs/week with them. - I've lived life with these people.

And, now a few of them won't be with us anymore.

And, I'm carrying this weight in my heart for the next three days (at least) without being able to talk with anyone at work about it.


I've been praying my guts out since I found out - both for those who'll be let go and for those in leadership at work who need to make the difficult decision. I know the Lord will work through all this - and who knows? Maybe this will cause some (either those let go or those still in the office) to seek Jesus when they've never before been interested. I don't know. All I do know is that I'm really, really sad.