The Kindness of Jesus

In follow-up to my post from last week, I'm just in awe of the kindness of Jesus in my life.

This weekend, my friend M and I were prayer-walking around downtown Denver in preparation for when my church expands and opens a site there. And, while we were praying, we were also talking....and I shared how weary I am of being alone, how ready I am to have a mate and how a good friend of mine (S) has become such a blessed example and gift from God of what I'm longing for (although he doesn't know Jesus, while we're not dating and while we are totally platonic friends--there really is no attraction from either of us for the other).

After sharing all that with her, she told me that she'd had a dream about me a few nights earlier that hadn't made sense until she heard my story. Basically, in the dream, I was married to a guy that doesn't know Jesus and pregnant with his child. And, for some reason, in the midst of that and as happy as I was, I called my friend M to talk. During our conversation (in the dream), she said to me, "Oh, Natalie, there's so much more for you. This is just the tip of the iceberg."

With the context of how I'd been feeling lately...and even of how my friend S has been such a blessing to me (how so much of the time we've spent together lately has opened my eyes to what I'm longing for and missing out on and to even a glimpse of what I'm excited for someday...although none of the feelings are getting me attached to S (which is a blessing in and of itself if you know me and how easily I used to get emotionally attached to guys)). Anyway, in context, her dream basically meant: I don't have to feel guilty for the emotions that are emerging through my time with S, and that all of the great stuff I'm experiencing with S is just the "tip of the iceberg." That there really is so much more than that out there for me...when I am finally in the relationship that the Lord has for me.

Basically, that dream was a reminder and confirmation that the Lord really does have someone for me. He's told me that before....but it's been a while and with nothing actually happening anywhere, it has been hard to hold onto the hope lately. So, how amazingly tender and kind it was of Jesus to remind and confirm for me - especially through someone (M) who hasn't known where I was at with things lately. I'm in awe....and just so thankful.....