Explanations

In my recent Thankful Thursday post, I mentioned two things that necessitate explanations.

1. The opportunity for a new position at work (and it feels so much more "right" now than it did last fall.) Well, this all sort of just happened....and will take way too many details to explain (and far more than most people care about) and nothing's set in stone yet. But, the bottom line is that I'm probably going to be moving into doing a jr. project assistant role in the next few weeks. That means that I'll be getting to work on actual projects instead of being the office manager and receptionist. I've had this opportunity before (probably about three times in the 2.5 years I've worked here) but never really wanted it before.
   
   In one sense, it's sort of a lateral move, rather than a promotion...but then again, it's not. At the basest level, it's really a job that has no ownership of its own and I'd be doing things that are handed to me. BUT, also, it'd be a lot more. I'd get to still do the hiring and other human resources things that I do now (celebrations, recognitions, etc), take ownership for some new things and get my feet wet in project work. And, probably in just the next six months or so, I'd move into a full project assistant role. (Which isn't a secretarial role...but more of project manager and administrative manger all roled into one). It's the job I would have taken in the fall...but didn't. And, it's true...had I taken the role then, I'd be a full PA now...but actually, this feels a lot better and more "right" than it did back then (mainly because I'm in a better place personally and spiritually). I'll keep you posted.
   


2. A really great new friend and all the lessons I'm learning about Jesus through him (even though he doesn't know Jesus). Don't get any ideas....he's just a FRIEND. But, that's what's so remarkable. He's just my friend and he's so amazing. I've never met anyone like him whom I connect so well with, who is so nice, so kind, so real, so human, so comfortable in his own skin, so easy to communicate with, so smart...yet not arrogant, so respectful, so considerate but also so funny and fun to be around. He's far from perfect but he's so NORMAL. There's no weirdness, no walls, no hesitation....just two people who have become friends. It's all so normal and wonderful.... and yet, I'm not attracted to him in any way.
   
   Typically - or I guess I should say: in the past - I'd get emotionally attached to guys very easily. If anyone showed me the slightest bit of interest, I'd fall hard and ignore any/all redflags or things I didn't like about him.... (And that's partially why I struggled with T last year....he showed really flimsy interest in me but I liked some of the things I saw in him even though there are glaringly huge issues in his life.) But, although he (my new friend S) is attractive inside and out, I feel more of an older sister sort of affection for him than anything else. I see more of Jesus in him than I do in some of my friends who know Jesus...and he doesn't know Jesus at all. There are a lot more details that I could share...but they're irrelevant. It's just been so nice to see how Jesus has answered my prayer for a really good, brother-type of friend AND that He's showing me a glimpse of what the man I end up with will be like...that that type of a man really is out there.
   
   Now...S just needs to come to know Jesus (for his own sake...not so I "can" suddenly justify liking him or something silly) and I need to keep guarding my heart so I don't let myself get wrongly emotionally attached to him.